My Spiritual Journey


Having been born into a highly secular society and raised in an irreligious and agnostic family background, I have been an atheistic materialist and naturalist for most of my life until my late thirties, and was only interested in nature and natural sciences. Due to my popular science interest in modern physics (cosmology, relativity theory, and quantum mechanics) I came to realize fundamental philosophical problems concerning time, causality, laws of nature, and the effectiveness of mathematics. I also realized the hard problem of consciousness, the problem of reason (incl. intentionality / aboutness), the problem of universals, the standard problem of free will, and the problem of objective morality, as well as the ultimate question "why is there anything rather than nothing". This led to a spiritual journey spanning about 15 years in search for a coherent world view, which implied the exploration of very different approaches like mathematical monism (Max Tegmark), pantheistic neopaganism (panpsychism, hylozooism, animism), Eastern philosophies like Daoism and Shintoism, non-dualism (Advaita Vedanta) and neoperennial integral thought (Ken Wilber), Whiteheadian panentheistic process thought, Bergsonian and Nietzschean flux, quantum idealism (Amit Goswami, Johanan Raatz and Michael Jones from Inspiring Philosophy), Neoplatonism with objective idealism (Timothy Sprigge, John Leslie), and finally philosophical / classical theism (I briefly pondered deism, but it never really made sense to me).

 

I then thoroughly evaluated the pro and con arguments for Christianity, esp. Roman Catholic and Reformed theology, as well as Biblical exegesis and history, which led to a period of denominational confusion and epicycles of belief and doubt (just for the record: no, I was not converted by my wife, who was just a Cafeteria Catholic and "Chreaster").

 

My conversion from atheistic naturalism and materialism to a supernaturalist spiritual world view did not involve any faith in holy scriptures, but was purely based on reason and a careful and critical evaluation of empirical evidence and philosophical arguments. However, I am meanwhile convinced that even without sophisticated arguments we can simply know as a properly basic belief that materialism is wrong and that a universal mind exists as ground of all being.

 

I strongly reject the modern surrogate religion of atheistic naturalism (esp. "New Atheism"), secular humanism (incl. the myth of progress), eliminative materialism, functionalist physicalism, mechanistic determinism, and reductionistic scientism as incoherent, irrational, empirically refuted, and thus absurd faith, which is mostly based on sloppy argumentation and shallow philosophy (esp. among internet infidels), and ultimately implies detrimental nihilism.

 

DISCLAIMER:

For various reasons I no longer publicly discuss my personal religious convictions, which may or may not be very different from what you think. After some years of bad experiences especially with social media interactions I also lost any interest whatsoever to debate issues like supernaturalism or intelligent design theory with stubborn naturalists and Darwinists. I generally block all such fruitless attempts on social media, which I now only use to publish my own views and arguments for those people, who are really interested and open minded. My time is too precious to waste it fighting an endless army of clueless trolls and their silly platitudes. I publicly present the arguments that convinced me, and I welcome if they should make others think too, but I couldn‘t care less about those, who reject these arguments or remain unconvinced. Likewise, I am simply not interested in further amateurish objections from infidel armchair philosophers, because you can be pretty sure that I already read several book length sophisticated academic discussions about each of them and have my well-thought-out reasons why I consider them as failures. I also do not have the time to answer common objections or common questions for the umpteenth time by email (Google is your friend). That said, if you are open minded and should have special questions concerning ID implications from my own field of expertise (paleontology), then you are of course welcome to ask and I will try my best to answer your questions adequately as far as my time permits.